Changes....
First and foremost, Happy 4th of July everyone!
Now, back to the Blogger. Anyways, I guess I am going to be reposting on my Blogger again. I found out that it was really relaxing not to type out anythng here, but also found out that it just gave me more stress, because I was back to holding everything in again. I guess this is the only thing I use to unleash and to cope with things. So here goes...
Topic: Changes
I think I deal with this topic too much. I know taht I have written something in the past about this, but it always comes back up. I mean that is what our lives and world is based upon...CHANGE. Everything changes...the weather, friendships, relationships, people...regardless if we like it or not. I used to be a firm belivever in not changing...but it happens whether you know it or not. I look back at old yearbooks, and see the physical changes of everyone, and i read some people's comments they wrote to me. A lot of them said, "Don't change!" Well, the fact is..I have changed. My life is different, my world is different...everything is different. And only a few people really recognize it. I always put up a big act...seems like Johnson is always happy...nothing seems to be bothering him. Always the goofball making people laugh. Always putting others before himself... I get tired of that, but I feel that if I help others and make them feel better, no one will ask me about mine. Even if they did, I wouldn't talk anyways...Everything gets held inside...Gotta keep smiling regardless...gotta have a happy disposition.
The smiles sometimes hurt. Changes...many things have changed in this year alone. And I find it funny how some changes happen. This year changed everything for a group of friends, myself included. We lost a brother in our long developing family. It was devastating. But I have to admit, some good did come out of that horrible incident. Without that happening, none of us would have gotte to know Thao. She is a great person. Without this happening, the friendships that we have now with eachother, wouldn't have been this strong. We are all going out together, planning things together....mostly everytime we go out. Back then it would be a specified activity once a month with everyone...but you know what? I would happily give that all up just to have you back.
Through trying times, you find out that a lot of people are there for you. Some are there for you all the way. Some are there for you, just to listen to your feelings..some give feedback..and some say that they will be there for you, even if you don't want to talk, they will just stay on the line and just wait in silence with you. Those are great gestures, but I feel they are a waste of your time. If I am not going to talk, I am not going to talk. So I'd rather not talk by myself than to drag along a friend. It is harder to cope and deal with things on your own, but I dont want to take up and waste someone else's time and just wait and not talk, but Thanks to everyone who offered to be there for me...I still am not ready, but if I ever am, I will consider you.
Relationships change...these can hurt. Just to simplify, I was seeing Diana, the girl that I had a crsuh on since her Freshman year, and when I was a Junior. It was so cool find out that she liked me too, but it was kind of sucky how we didn't let eachother know until she was a Junior and I was a Freshman in college. Things were going great, but then things changed. Yeah, we are still friends, but it s hard to move on. This wasn't like I met ehr and had a crush on her...this was a long time thing...but it's all right..Change happens, and I accept that. I sitll like her, but we are just friends.
Speaking of friends, friendships change as well. I mean I have kept in touch with many of my high school friends, but our friendships are completely different now. Thngs aren't the same. At SEM, there was our group that consisted of the Shively 6 Guys and Columbia 2 Gurls...Now....although we still chill with eachother, things have become really distant. I also chilled with a group of gurls. Things withthem are all right I guess, but I think I am slowly fading out again. Some of them don't really talk until they do a group thing...and everyone has changed in their own way...its just not the same as before. Online friends or rather the Online Family. It isn't a family anymore. Had so many friends to talk to. Now, the main online friends I talk to...Julie, Adelle, and Steffy. Two were my ex-g/f. And even now, things aren't the same...I feel that we are drifting apart. I mean sure there are the usual and custom "Hello" and "goodbye" or "Good night," but other than that...its nothing. I know we are all growing up and maturing, but there will always be a a part of me that wants to hold on to the past. Wants to linger on to what was. Although we still talk and stuff, sometimes it is just to say "Hello" or "goodbye."
"Sometimes it's best to talk to a stranger because I find that they are most honest with you. "
I find this true. I have been talking to this one girl who I met through Lysa and Lyly once. Her name is Shanon. She seems to be easy to talk to. And I don't really know her, it seems like talking to her is alot easier than talking to friends. And I guess that strangers are more honest because they don't know you, so they don't really care if they do. Friends tend to hold back information so as not to hurt you. I find it weird how with someone I don't really know I am able to talk alot more about the problems bothering me than to a friend who has been there from teh start. I guess everyone has a fear of getting judged from a really close friend.
"Honest opinions coming from a friend are better than 'thoughtful' opinions coming from a stranger."
This is also true as well...I think the best critisizms come from your friends, because not only can they take the viewpoint of a stranger, but they also know you, and can give you an even more in depth critisizm than a stranger. It is just too scary to find out what your friends really think. Friends alway tell you things, truth or not, but there is always a little information they hol dback to spare you feelings. I guess that it is for the best. Friendship is not a one way street. One person cannot be putting all the effort into it. Both persons invovled have to put effort into the friendship in order to make it owrk. So things change, but it is up to you on how much you are willing to let it change. Take charge of your life, I am hoping I am able to take a hold of mine....
Now, back to the Blogger. Anyways, I guess I am going to be reposting on my Blogger again. I found out that it was really relaxing not to type out anythng here, but also found out that it just gave me more stress, because I was back to holding everything in again. I guess this is the only thing I use to unleash and to cope with things. So here goes...
Topic: Changes
I think I deal with this topic too much. I know taht I have written something in the past about this, but it always comes back up. I mean that is what our lives and world is based upon...CHANGE. Everything changes...the weather, friendships, relationships, people...regardless if we like it or not. I used to be a firm belivever in not changing...but it happens whether you know it or not. I look back at old yearbooks, and see the physical changes of everyone, and i read some people's comments they wrote to me. A lot of them said, "Don't change!" Well, the fact is..I have changed. My life is different, my world is different...everything is different. And only a few people really recognize it. I always put up a big act...seems like Johnson is always happy...nothing seems to be bothering him. Always the goofball making people laugh. Always putting others before himself... I get tired of that, but I feel that if I help others and make them feel better, no one will ask me about mine. Even if they did, I wouldn't talk anyways...Everything gets held inside...Gotta keep smiling regardless...gotta have a happy disposition.
The smiles sometimes hurt. Changes...many things have changed in this year alone. And I find it funny how some changes happen. This year changed everything for a group of friends, myself included. We lost a brother in our long developing family. It was devastating. But I have to admit, some good did come out of that horrible incident. Without that happening, none of us would have gotte to know Thao. She is a great person. Without this happening, the friendships that we have now with eachother, wouldn't have been this strong. We are all going out together, planning things together....mostly everytime we go out. Back then it would be a specified activity once a month with everyone...but you know what? I would happily give that all up just to have you back.
Through trying times, you find out that a lot of people are there for you. Some are there for you all the way. Some are there for you, just to listen to your feelings..some give feedback..and some say that they will be there for you, even if you don't want to talk, they will just stay on the line and just wait in silence with you. Those are great gestures, but I feel they are a waste of your time. If I am not going to talk, I am not going to talk. So I'd rather not talk by myself than to drag along a friend. It is harder to cope and deal with things on your own, but I dont want to take up and waste someone else's time and just wait and not talk, but Thanks to everyone who offered to be there for me...I still am not ready, but if I ever am, I will consider you.
Relationships change...these can hurt. Just to simplify, I was seeing Diana, the girl that I had a crsuh on since her Freshman year, and when I was a Junior. It was so cool find out that she liked me too, but it was kind of sucky how we didn't let eachother know until she was a Junior and I was a Freshman in college. Things were going great, but then things changed. Yeah, we are still friends, but it s hard to move on. This wasn't like I met ehr and had a crush on her...this was a long time thing...but it's all right..Change happens, and I accept that. I sitll like her, but we are just friends.
Speaking of friends, friendships change as well. I mean I have kept in touch with many of my high school friends, but our friendships are completely different now. Thngs aren't the same. At SEM, there was our group that consisted of the Shively 6 Guys and Columbia 2 Gurls...Now....although we still chill with eachother, things have become really distant. I also chilled with a group of gurls. Things withthem are all right I guess, but I think I am slowly fading out again. Some of them don't really talk until they do a group thing...and everyone has changed in their own way...its just not the same as before. Online friends or rather the Online Family. It isn't a family anymore. Had so many friends to talk to. Now, the main online friends I talk to...Julie, Adelle, and Steffy. Two were my ex-g/f. And even now, things aren't the same...I feel that we are drifting apart. I mean sure there are the usual and custom "Hello" and "goodbye" or "Good night," but other than that...its nothing. I know we are all growing up and maturing, but there will always be a a part of me that wants to hold on to the past. Wants to linger on to what was. Although we still talk and stuff, sometimes it is just to say "Hello" or "goodbye."
"Sometimes it's best to talk to a stranger because I find that they are most honest with you. "
I find this true. I have been talking to this one girl who I met through Lysa and Lyly once. Her name is Shanon. She seems to be easy to talk to. And I don't really know her, it seems like talking to her is alot easier than talking to friends. And I guess that strangers are more honest because they don't know you, so they don't really care if they do. Friends tend to hold back information so as not to hurt you. I find it weird how with someone I don't really know I am able to talk alot more about the problems bothering me than to a friend who has been there from teh start. I guess everyone has a fear of getting judged from a really close friend.
"Honest opinions coming from a friend are better than 'thoughtful' opinions coming from a stranger."
This is also true as well...I think the best critisizms come from your friends, because not only can they take the viewpoint of a stranger, but they also know you, and can give you an even more in depth critisizm than a stranger. It is just too scary to find out what your friends really think. Friends alway tell you things, truth or not, but there is always a little information they hol dback to spare you feelings. I guess that it is for the best. Friendship is not a one way street. One person cannot be putting all the effort into it. Both persons invovled have to put effort into the friendship in order to make it owrk. So things change, but it is up to you on how much you are willing to let it change. Take charge of your life, I am hoping I am able to take a hold of mine....
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