Yesterday I went to see The Hot Chick with my friend, Rosa. Too tired to describe it. But it was cool spending a few hours with her. As of how I am feeling right now...let's just say that my parents are at it again and yet again they are pissed off over some little thing. Once again their attempt of a happy marriage fails terribly and just puts me in anger and in a strange position. I wish they could just make up their fucken mind and either stay together and stop faking that they love eachother willing to accept the good and bad or just fucken give it a rest. Frankly, I don't care if they get a divorce, but what I do care about is them pretending to be all lovey dovey when the truth is the honeymoon is over. It gets me really mad to see them all acting like they are still in love, and hearing my mom joking around saying things like, "So you going to call your girlfriend?" or "Your girlfriend is busy so you had to come home to us, huh?" I know that there is some sort of jealousy still inside my mom. I know she still thinks that my dad has a girlfriend on the side. Everything is so fucked up and I just wish they make up their damn minds and move on, or end it all. I don't want to be here...For damn sure, I'm moving out!

Great my dad just came out and said, "Your mom and me are going to get a divorce, who do you want to go with?" That is just fucking great! He puts me in this awkward situation again. This isn't the first time that I have been asked this, but so far they never actually did. I mean it's no big surprise that they would finally decide to end things, but I don't know who I want to go with. I have been with this family for almost all of my life..14 out of my 18 years. Fuck this...I need a way out!