Yesterday night I was talking with a few people. And like actually chatting with them, people that I have not talked to in ages. I discovered that a homegurl of mine is there for me and cares for me. We jsut always make fun of eachother and sure we chat and stuff, but once in a long while we have a serious talk and stuff...and those are really nice chats. I also had another talk with another one of my friend. Talked about the past...and how much fun it was....the stupid stuff that we did...but fun stuff...and then she left a friendster testimonial for me which brought a tear to my eye! LOL..not really...but it could have...Another convo that I had was with another friend. A bestest buddy you might say..and I was talking with her about her and this one person. And about lingering feelings....
Lingering feelings...you don't expect them to be there...they are just there...hence lingering. I was messing around with my friend about her liking this one guy and as it turned out she did...so then we change the topic to the girl that I had lingering feelings for...and as it turns out...I have lingering feelings for her...they just stay within me. As she put it, "You think you are fine, especially when you don't see them for a long while, but when you see them, your heart skips a beat." This is so true. I mean it is exactly what happens everytime I see this person. I want to move on, I try to, and at times I do, but all it takes is one look...and BAM everything comes back...not just slowling pacing back..it rushes like a flood about to devour an unsuspecting town. Things turned out differnet in life than I expected. I mean ever since I began to like her, it was set in my mind that we would be prom dates...but that didn't happen. And like I just realized that I just keep lingering on, expecting something to happen, but knowing nothing will. Then my friend mentioned a thought that I thought to be weird. She thought it to be "cute." She said that it would be "cute" if me and her ended up getting married because of how long I liked her. I think it would be weird. It's funny that I would picture me and this gurl going to prom together since I first liked her, but never thought past high school. Prom was the big moment in my mind...but marraige?!?! Wow...
yay to old times- no matter how stressful they mightve been (borrowed from Juju's blog)
Lingering feelings...you don't expect them to be there...they are just there...hence lingering. I was messing around with my friend about her liking this one guy and as it turned out she did...so then we change the topic to the girl that I had lingering feelings for...and as it turns out...I have lingering feelings for her...they just stay within me. As she put it, "You think you are fine, especially when you don't see them for a long while, but when you see them, your heart skips a beat." This is so true. I mean it is exactly what happens everytime I see this person. I want to move on, I try to, and at times I do, but all it takes is one look...and BAM everything comes back...not just slowling pacing back..it rushes like a flood about to devour an unsuspecting town. Things turned out differnet in life than I expected. I mean ever since I began to like her, it was set in my mind that we would be prom dates...but that didn't happen. And like I just realized that I just keep lingering on, expecting something to happen, but knowing nothing will. Then my friend mentioned a thought that I thought to be weird. She thought it to be "cute." She said that it would be "cute" if me and her ended up getting married because of how long I liked her. I think it would be weird. It's funny that I would picture me and this gurl going to prom together since I first liked her, but never thought past high school. Prom was the big moment in my mind...but marraige?!?! Wow...
yay to old times- no matter how stressful they mightve been (borrowed from Juju's blog)
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