Still Haven't Gotten Any Balls and Regretting It...
This always happens to me. I like someone, and I don't have the guts to tell them, and I am left just the way I started. I guess I finally decided to change my ways a little too late. About one month too late.
One day you are doing fine, and liking, crushing on noone, and then all of sudden, you begin to relike someone. Crushing on someone that you thought you had finally moved on. Someone like her, I don't think I can move on, but I just like to keep telling myself that I can. The person who I am referring to is Maria. She is the person that I just cannot let go even if I wanted to. If I was Candy, she would be my Phuc. If I were Cindy, she would be my Abraham. Sad, but true.
So, we finally talk after a long while, and of all things we go and hang out. I remember saying that if I ever see her again, I will tell her that I like her. Well, guess what? I chickened out...again. I don't know...there was just some news that I heard that I couldn't do it. At least not yet. I mean, it is probably still ovious that I still like her, but I don;t know. I remember saying that I would tell her when she went to Washington for a cousin's wedding. She left and I said I would tell her, but then we lost touch with eachother. And I remember how much I regretted not letting her know. Well as "chance" would have it, I got a second chance because in a million to one chance, we reconnected, but I never saw her...call it nerves or whatnot. Well, finally, after almost a year, I decided to giver her a call, just to talk, and when she answered...Damn...
Well since, Cindy couldn't go to Medieval Times, it would be a perfect thing to hang out with her and see her. I even went to pick her up...and that is a far drive to Riverside. But it didn't matter, and once I got there and saw her nothing else mattered at that moment. I guess I am a strong believer in fate because this is the second person that I have liked where everything just seemed to fit into place.
I also think that fate has really bad timing as well. I wanted to tell her, and finally just let the obvious out there, but then because I still didn't get any balls since the last time I wrote about it, my quest to reveal my feelings did not happen due to the news that she has a boyfriend.
I have said that I don't want to be the person to ruin any relationship, and usually when someone is "taken" to me they are off limits and I do not like them anymore, but with her it's different. I still like her, and I still don't want to give up. I don't know about her, but I feel that she likes me as well, but I don't know. I just like her too much to just give up...
in too deep
This always happens to me. I like someone, and I don't have the guts to tell them, and I am left just the way I started. I guess I finally decided to change my ways a little too late. About one month too late.
One day you are doing fine, and liking, crushing on noone, and then all of sudden, you begin to relike someone. Crushing on someone that you thought you had finally moved on. Someone like her, I don't think I can move on, but I just like to keep telling myself that I can. The person who I am referring to is Maria. She is the person that I just cannot let go even if I wanted to. If I was Candy, she would be my Phuc. If I were Cindy, she would be my Abraham. Sad, but true.
So, we finally talk after a long while, and of all things we go and hang out. I remember saying that if I ever see her again, I will tell her that I like her. Well, guess what? I chickened out...again. I don't know...there was just some news that I heard that I couldn't do it. At least not yet. I mean, it is probably still ovious that I still like her, but I don;t know. I remember saying that I would tell her when she went to Washington for a cousin's wedding. She left and I said I would tell her, but then we lost touch with eachother. And I remember how much I regretted not letting her know. Well as "chance" would have it, I got a second chance because in a million to one chance, we reconnected, but I never saw her...call it nerves or whatnot. Well, finally, after almost a year, I decided to giver her a call, just to talk, and when she answered...Damn...
Well since, Cindy couldn't go to Medieval Times, it would be a perfect thing to hang out with her and see her. I even went to pick her up...and that is a far drive to Riverside. But it didn't matter, and once I got there and saw her nothing else mattered at that moment. I guess I am a strong believer in fate because this is the second person that I have liked where everything just seemed to fit into place.
I also think that fate has really bad timing as well. I wanted to tell her, and finally just let the obvious out there, but then because I still didn't get any balls since the last time I wrote about it, my quest to reveal my feelings did not happen due to the news that she has a boyfriend.
I have said that I don't want to be the person to ruin any relationship, and usually when someone is "taken" to me they are off limits and I do not like them anymore, but with her it's different. I still like her, and I still don't want to give up. I don't know about her, but I feel that she likes me as well, but I don't know. I just like her too much to just give up...
i've given everything,i loved u endlessly,
but when it comes to me you dont even notice me
in too deep
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