Thank You


Dear Joi,

I know that we aren’t the closest of friends, but we are friends. Well at least I think we are and my opinion is all that matters! LOL j/k. Anyways, recently we have been hanging out and talking and stuff and have you noticed a difference lately? Have you noticed how I haven’t been all pissy faced or down in the dumps? Have you noticed all the fun we have been having or at least all the laughs we have with everyone now? If you haven’t, I have.

This is a major turnaround from February. If you have forgotten, that was the time when I went ballistic and took off from JJ Café and decided that none of my friends were there for me and decided to walk home at like 12:00-1:00AM. Well, I will never forget that day. Not because it was so much fun or because after power walking and running all that way only to wake up the next day sore, I will remember that day because that is the day that you reinsured me about friendship.

I, of course, was having one of my moody days and nights. (But technically I justified my actions that night, although they were not the right actions to take, they did have a reason behind them. It wasn’t just, “If I act up, I can be the center of attention.”) Anyways after that incident, I realized that the weirdest people impact you. I am not calling you weird….much, but it is more like a right place at the right time sort of thing, and you were at the right place by following me that whole night.

Basically, I just wanted to say Thank You, Joi. Thank you for not giving up on me. Honestly, I would not know how I would be doing right now if you had not followed me and not given up on me. I mean you could have gotten in that car and just took off and let me be, but you didn’t. Neither did Joanne and John La. I mean I was asking for it too, with the way I was acting, but you decided to keep up with me. Maybe it was for your own reasons, to drive home the fact that I was “selfish, stubborn, and want attention.” Or maybe it was to keep me company and as you said “then I will follow you until you get home to make sure that you get home safely.” Whatever the reason was, thank you.

Thanks for just dealing with me when I was not that stable and when I did not know how to deal with all the things that were happening in my life. Thank you for not getting in that car and actually granted me what I wanted at that moment, to be alone. Because despite the anger and the way I was acting, having you there by me and just not giving up on me actually changed my mindset. I knew that I was not making situations easier by being Mr. Moody all the time, but at the time I couldn’t help but to feel like that. It seemed that nothing in my life went as I wanted it to. And for some reason my messed up head thought that my friends weren’t friends at all. But you were able to show me that even though we weren’t the best of friends, you were able to stick by me. Showing me that friends are and will be there even when it seems like they won’t. I just have to allow myself to open up to them.

I wanted to tell you this while you were at Office Depot the other day, but I am not that good in talking and expressing my feelings. I tend to be better at writing, so here I am. Just thanks for listening to me. I can honestly say that when I a smiling now or out with you guys that I am actually enjoying it. I think you can see it that my smiles are genuine and that I am genuinely having a good time. No more “selfish, stubborn, or want attention” Johnson, but just a better and happier Johnson who doesn’t need to pretend anymore. I actually have a good time when I go out now with friends, and you are probably thinking “DUH! You are supposed to have a good time when you are out with friends,” and I did have fun for the most part, but trust me, this was a lesson that needed time before I fully understood it.

Anyways, again I say thank you for caring.

Your Friend,



Johnson Chang