College Dropout?!?! I Don't Think So!
So school has begun for about 3 weeks for me now. So far so good. To everyone who was worried about me dropping out of college, I am sticking with it. I have 7 classes this semester and 18 units. It's pretty crazy, but I know that I can do it. No big deal. The classes are going to be hard, but I know I can do it. I just can't slack off. If any of you see me slipping...just yell at me and tell me to get my act together. Wish me luck everyone!
Dateless, But Not Desperate
All right, so I know that in the past I have left a post about being lonely, and that I have to get some balls and stuff, but it's my own life. It's how I am feeling, and decide to open up and put on MY blogger. This blogger is mainly for me and if you want to read whats on my mind at that moment in time, feel free. I have nothing to hide. I don;t mind you reading it, but when you say something to make me feel like a loser based on what I typed here, it gets me mad.
So I said I was lonely and that I needed to get some balls. NEVER did I ever say that I needed anyone's help. I never asked for anyone to try to hook me up or something. I deal with things my own way. I might take a little longer to act upon things, but dude, its my life...I can take however long I want. If I take too long and miss out on an opportuniy, it is my fault. My choice. Just let it happen, don't try to prevent that. It wouldn't be the first time that a chance passed me by. I know that it would be dumb, but let me do it on my own.
I went to a frat party on Friday with a few friends. A lot of my co-workers were there as well. The ones that I usually go clubbin with. So it wouldn't be weird for me cuz we been out before. Well, we get there and sure enough, my coworkers are there. Being a frat party, there were girls there. Knowing who I am, I am not a person that is going to approach a girl and try to pick up. It isn't me. It's not my style. For one, I am not self-confident enough to even approach a girl and two I don't have the balls to do it as well. Also, I like someone and am talking to that person, all by myself...in the way that I do, my own timing, so even if I did have enough balls to hit someone up, I wouldn't if I am talking to someone else. Well, my friend tells me, "Look at all these girls here, Johnson. Get some balls, and go dance with one of them. C'mon, like you said 'Gotta Get Some Balls.'" That got me mad. He is also the person at school who is always saying stuff like, "so meet any girls yet?" We see a couple of girls and he says, "Go hit her up...she's cute." And I am sure she probably is, but dude, I am not the kinda person who just walks up to someone and is able the just start a conversation. I am too shy and too self-concious. And when I finally do make a friend at that college who just so happens to be a girl, he is always there to assume that I met her to hook up with her. So at the frat party wasn't the first time. Then later on, I finally decide to dance with a coworker, Tracy. My freinds and he sees us and are going to leave so they go up to me and tell me, but when he sees me dancing with a "girl" who he doesn't know is my coworker...he is all like "GO JOHNSON! We can go later if you want...GET YOUR GROOVE ON!" or something like that...and taht made me feel really stupid. Just because I am dancing or I go to a party or something doesn't mean I am trying to hook up!
Example #2: We were at Julie's Sorority's booth, just kicking it with her. And we wre just talking and chatting and stuff, and then I don't know what we were talking about, I think Julie was telling us about one of the events they were hosting. A clubbing thing, and she was inviting us. Then the same friend says "Yeah, and you can get Johnson a date!" And I was like WTF?!!? That got me mad. Julie said "Johnson can find himself a date." which is true, and I was like "yeah!" But as we were leaving, I was fed up with all that and I just said straight out, "YOU NEED TO SHUT THE FUCK UP ABOUT THAT SHIT ALL READY!" And taht was taht...
Dude, don't get me wrong, I know that you are just trying to help me out, but I never asked for help. I never asked anyone to help hook me up with anyone. I do things my own way, and I apprieciate your help, but damn I can handle being lonely or finding someone...let me do it myself. Cuz when you just tell everyone about it and shit like taht...you make me sound desperate. I am not desperate for a g/f. I would like one, but in due time. I like to build up to it, and not just go full speed ahead. Let me take my time...do my own thing...and things should work out for the better.
So school has begun for about 3 weeks for me now. So far so good. To everyone who was worried about me dropping out of college, I am sticking with it. I have 7 classes this semester and 18 units. It's pretty crazy, but I know that I can do it. No big deal. The classes are going to be hard, but I know I can do it. I just can't slack off. If any of you see me slipping...just yell at me and tell me to get my act together. Wish me luck everyone!
Dateless, But Not Desperate
All right, so I know that in the past I have left a post about being lonely, and that I have to get some balls and stuff, but it's my own life. It's how I am feeling, and decide to open up and put on MY blogger. This blogger is mainly for me and if you want to read whats on my mind at that moment in time, feel free. I have nothing to hide. I don;t mind you reading it, but when you say something to make me feel like a loser based on what I typed here, it gets me mad.
So I said I was lonely and that I needed to get some balls. NEVER did I ever say that I needed anyone's help. I never asked for anyone to try to hook me up or something. I deal with things my own way. I might take a little longer to act upon things, but dude, its my life...I can take however long I want. If I take too long and miss out on an opportuniy, it is my fault. My choice. Just let it happen, don't try to prevent that. It wouldn't be the first time that a chance passed me by. I know that it would be dumb, but let me do it on my own.
I went to a frat party on Friday with a few friends. A lot of my co-workers were there as well. The ones that I usually go clubbin with. So it wouldn't be weird for me cuz we been out before. Well, we get there and sure enough, my coworkers are there. Being a frat party, there were girls there. Knowing who I am, I am not a person that is going to approach a girl and try to pick up. It isn't me. It's not my style. For one, I am not self-confident enough to even approach a girl and two I don't have the balls to do it as well. Also, I like someone and am talking to that person, all by myself...in the way that I do, my own timing, so even if I did have enough balls to hit someone up, I wouldn't if I am talking to someone else. Well, my friend tells me, "Look at all these girls here, Johnson. Get some balls, and go dance with one of them. C'mon, like you said 'Gotta Get Some Balls.'" That got me mad. He is also the person at school who is always saying stuff like, "so meet any girls yet?" We see a couple of girls and he says, "Go hit her up...she's cute." And I am sure she probably is, but dude, I am not the kinda person who just walks up to someone and is able the just start a conversation. I am too shy and too self-concious. And when I finally do make a friend at that college who just so happens to be a girl, he is always there to assume that I met her to hook up with her. So at the frat party wasn't the first time. Then later on, I finally decide to dance with a coworker, Tracy. My freinds and he sees us and are going to leave so they go up to me and tell me, but when he sees me dancing with a "girl" who he doesn't know is my coworker...he is all like "GO JOHNSON! We can go later if you want...GET YOUR GROOVE ON!" or something like that...and taht made me feel really stupid. Just because I am dancing or I go to a party or something doesn't mean I am trying to hook up!
Example #2: We were at Julie's Sorority's booth, just kicking it with her. And we wre just talking and chatting and stuff, and then I don't know what we were talking about, I think Julie was telling us about one of the events they were hosting. A clubbing thing, and she was inviting us. Then the same friend says "Yeah, and you can get Johnson a date!" And I was like WTF?!!? That got me mad. Julie said "Johnson can find himself a date." which is true, and I was like "yeah!" But as we were leaving, I was fed up with all that and I just said straight out, "YOU NEED TO SHUT THE FUCK UP ABOUT THAT SHIT ALL READY!" And taht was taht...
Dude, don't get me wrong, I know that you are just trying to help me out, but I never asked for help. I never asked anyone to help hook me up with anyone. I do things my own way, and I apprieciate your help, but damn I can handle being lonely or finding someone...let me do it myself. Cuz when you just tell everyone about it and shit like taht...you make me sound desperate. I am not desperate for a g/f. I would like one, but in due time. I like to build up to it, and not just go full speed ahead. Let me take my time...do my own thing...and things should work out for the better.
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