Da Da Da Da...Da Da Da Da-Damn
So feelings and emotions are really gay. They change by the second, and are unpredictable. Don't you hate the feeling when you think you are fine and dandy. Completely over someone or something, but one memory or one glance just brings back everything that you felt, and it just comes rushing towards you and hits you hard. You know, usually after getting over someone, but then when you see em or hear their voice...its like Fabulous singing, "Da da da da, da da da da-damn!" And you have to get over them all over again.
Yeah, that just happened to me recently. The person, Diana Vuong. I have had a crush on her since I met her when she was a freshman, and I was a junior. Things started to look promising between me and her. We both liked eachother, but eventually just didn't work out. It was the best May/June I ever had...(May describing Diana, June describing a day at Disneyland) Well, I haven't talked to her much since, online here and there. But online is online...no voices...no physical contact. Talked to her many times thruogh email and AIM, and I felt nothing. Well, she calls me to ask if I'm going to the beach on Sunday...which surprises me cuz she called me. We haven't talked on the phone in ages. To make things worse is that I call her back at around 2:30AM to talk and we talk til 4:30.
We go to the beach the next day and she is my ride. We act normal...as if nothing has happened. Just friends...but then here comes the rush of feelings that just likes to come...and hit you hard. And then BAM! Everything is back. I am back to being that shy Junior seeing her for the first time, which is even gayer because I shouldn't be like that...I am never like that around her...but it happens. I know that nothing will happen with me and her again, or at least I am pretty sure...but yeah, I just remember all the fun times I had with her...the times that I chose to forget...I had to...to get over her and move on. It made me realize that I missed her more than I thought. Damn emotions...always got to act up...so basically...now I will try to make an effort to keep her in my life. Phone calls, emails, whatever. If nothing, at least I will have a close friend that I can talk to...
So feelings and emotions are really gay. They change by the second, and are unpredictable. Don't you hate the feeling when you think you are fine and dandy. Completely over someone or something, but one memory or one glance just brings back everything that you felt, and it just comes rushing towards you and hits you hard. You know, usually after getting over someone, but then when you see em or hear their voice...its like Fabulous singing, "Da da da da, da da da da-damn!" And you have to get over them all over again.
Yeah, that just happened to me recently. The person, Diana Vuong. I have had a crush on her since I met her when she was a freshman, and I was a junior. Things started to look promising between me and her. We both liked eachother, but eventually just didn't work out. It was the best May/June I ever had...(May describing Diana, June describing a day at Disneyland) Well, I haven't talked to her much since, online here and there. But online is online...no voices...no physical contact. Talked to her many times thruogh email and AIM, and I felt nothing. Well, she calls me to ask if I'm going to the beach on Sunday...which surprises me cuz she called me. We haven't talked on the phone in ages. To make things worse is that I call her back at around 2:30AM to talk and we talk til 4:30.
We go to the beach the next day and she is my ride. We act normal...as if nothing has happened. Just friends...but then here comes the rush of feelings that just likes to come...and hit you hard. And then BAM! Everything is back. I am back to being that shy Junior seeing her for the first time, which is even gayer because I shouldn't be like that...I am never like that around her...but it happens. I know that nothing will happen with me and her again, or at least I am pretty sure...but yeah, I just remember all the fun times I had with her...the times that I chose to forget...I had to...to get over her and move on. It made me realize that I missed her more than I thought. Damn emotions...always got to act up...so basically...now I will try to make an effort to keep her in my life. Phone calls, emails, whatever. If nothing, at least I will have a close friend that I can talk to...
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