No Matter What, I Will Always Be The "Nice Guy"
There is nothing like the holidays to make you realize how lonely you are...and it never fails. Just want to have someone to call my own during the holidays, someone who I can just hang out with and stuff during these holidays of togetherness. Is that too much to ask for? Damn you Santa Claus!!!
So in my situation, I have been Mr. Nice Guy. The sweet guy. And time and time again I have been overlooked or passed by for the other guy...the jerk who all the girls love to be with, but dislike how they treat them. You would think that after the 10,000th girl to reject me for the jerk, I would finally learn to be a jerk and maybe...just maybe I would get a girl, right? Well, wrong.
I know that nice guys are boring to girls, and despite them complaining and always saying they want a nice guy, they don't go for the nice guys right now because they want their fun, and in their opinion, the jerks give them a run for their money. Maybe that is true, because hearing the majority of girls complain, it does seem like the nice guys are boring. I can honestly say that I am no big thrill, but how would I know if I am boring if I don't even get a chance to see if I am or not? This is not about me complaining about girls who will never choose the nice guy...that is certainly not the case, they eventually do, in most situations. So I am not even worrying about that...this entry is more about me being the nice guy and always being the nice guy. I am unable to be anything but the nice guy. Maybe it's a good thing, or maybe it is my downfall.
So if it is bugging me so much to be the nice guy, why don't I change? Simple solution...and I thought about it. I even tried to change. I was so fed up about being he nice guy that I finally decided to myself, "FUCK IT!" Change was in the process for me. There would no longer be Mr. Nice Guy. The Johnson that everyone knew was no more. Time for a new me...my transformation would happen and despite my lacking in the looks department, if I changed my attitude and demeanor, I could get someone, just for the sake of getting someone. There have been a lot more people who are uglier than me who have gotten someone and all you can do is think to yourself, "HOW IN THE FUCK?!?!"
Change I did. In my own way and on my own time, I did change. When I was with friends, I was still the same me, but when I wasn't around anyone, doing my own thing, I was no longer Mr. NG. I was a new and different person, a bad @$$ who just didn't give a fuck. (not really, but for more dramatics I was..LOL) Of course, it wasn't that much of a change, but I was willing to do whatever it took to find me some loving. LOL...I changed my game, I told girls what they wanted to hear, and started thinking with the Johnson in my pants instead. And to my surprise, this experiment of mine worked! I found some people who wanted to keep me company and everything. They were giving me the light of day that I normally wouldn't have received. Being the not so NG worked.
However, saying what the girl wanted to hear (basically lieing) and acting like a prick did get me some girls, but I felt like a prick...and then it hit me. I could never be the jerk guy that girls go for, because I am not a jerk. I feel remorse and guilt when I do something that Mr. Jerkface does. And that is when it hits me. the jerk who acts like a prick never feels like he is a prick. Whatever it takes to get what he wants. No regrets. Me on the other hand...I feel like the way I treated people. If I treated someone like an @$$, I feel like an @$$. And because I do feel and care about how I treat people, I will never be the jerk that gets the girls. I still have respect for girls. And I still have respect in myself to not do anything that I feel is against my morals or values. And I realize now, that it was so easy to get what I wanted that I lost respect for the girl who would wait on me hand and foot and do whatever I wanted. A servant or submissive type of girl is not what I wanted. Plus I would not respect myself if I did pursue that relationship.
Sure, I could have found someone over the holiday season and cured my lonliness on the outside, but I would not have cured my lonliness in the inside and to achieve that I would have to be me...the regular me...Mr. Nice Guy. Only then will I be happy and not lonely. It's okay, I know that at least for now, I am meant to be alone. It is logical because all the girls around my age are looking for their fun, and that fun just isn't going to be with a boring nice guy. They will date, fall in love or lust, break up and I will be there to console them as I always do. Then as we grow up, they are going to want to settle down, and I will still be there, having been ready a long time for a long term relationship or by then to settle down, and eventually will find someone to settle down with. In a way, Nice Guys do Finish Last. But until then I shall remain single until I am about 26+ the average age when most of the people I know want to get married and so only 5+ more years to go...haha. So for this Holiday Season, I am again alone in the aspect that I do not have a significant other in my life at this moment, but I still have my friends in many ways complete me. So in actuality, I am not alone. Happy Holidays!
There is nothing like the holidays to make you realize how lonely you are...and it never fails. Just want to have someone to call my own during the holidays, someone who I can just hang out with and stuff during these holidays of togetherness. Is that too much to ask for? Damn you Santa Claus!!!
So in my situation, I have been Mr. Nice Guy. The sweet guy. And time and time again I have been overlooked or passed by for the other guy...the jerk who all the girls love to be with, but dislike how they treat them. You would think that after the 10,000th girl to reject me for the jerk, I would finally learn to be a jerk and maybe...just maybe I would get a girl, right? Well, wrong.
I know that nice guys are boring to girls, and despite them complaining and always saying they want a nice guy, they don't go for the nice guys right now because they want their fun, and in their opinion, the jerks give them a run for their money. Maybe that is true, because hearing the majority of girls complain, it does seem like the nice guys are boring. I can honestly say that I am no big thrill, but how would I know if I am boring if I don't even get a chance to see if I am or not? This is not about me complaining about girls who will never choose the nice guy...that is certainly not the case, they eventually do, in most situations. So I am not even worrying about that...this entry is more about me being the nice guy and always being the nice guy. I am unable to be anything but the nice guy. Maybe it's a good thing, or maybe it is my downfall.
So if it is bugging me so much to be the nice guy, why don't I change? Simple solution...and I thought about it. I even tried to change. I was so fed up about being he nice guy that I finally decided to myself, "FUCK IT!" Change was in the process for me. There would no longer be Mr. Nice Guy. The Johnson that everyone knew was no more. Time for a new me...my transformation would happen and despite my lacking in the looks department, if I changed my attitude and demeanor, I could get someone, just for the sake of getting someone. There have been a lot more people who are uglier than me who have gotten someone and all you can do is think to yourself, "HOW IN THE FUCK?!?!"
Change I did. In my own way and on my own time, I did change. When I was with friends, I was still the same me, but when I wasn't around anyone, doing my own thing, I was no longer Mr. NG. I was a new and different person, a bad @$$ who just didn't give a fuck. (not really, but for more dramatics I was..LOL) Of course, it wasn't that much of a change, but I was willing to do whatever it took to find me some loving. LOL...I changed my game, I told girls what they wanted to hear, and started thinking with the Johnson in my pants instead. And to my surprise, this experiment of mine worked! I found some people who wanted to keep me company and everything. They were giving me the light of day that I normally wouldn't have received. Being the not so NG worked.
However, saying what the girl wanted to hear (basically lieing) and acting like a prick did get me some girls, but I felt like a prick...and then it hit me. I could never be the jerk guy that girls go for, because I am not a jerk. I feel remorse and guilt when I do something that Mr. Jerkface does. And that is when it hits me. the jerk who acts like a prick never feels like he is a prick. Whatever it takes to get what he wants. No regrets. Me on the other hand...I feel like the way I treated people. If I treated someone like an @$$, I feel like an @$$. And because I do feel and care about how I treat people, I will never be the jerk that gets the girls. I still have respect for girls. And I still have respect in myself to not do anything that I feel is against my morals or values. And I realize now, that it was so easy to get what I wanted that I lost respect for the girl who would wait on me hand and foot and do whatever I wanted. A servant or submissive type of girl is not what I wanted. Plus I would not respect myself if I did pursue that relationship.
Sure, I could have found someone over the holiday season and cured my lonliness on the outside, but I would not have cured my lonliness in the inside and to achieve that I would have to be me...the regular me...Mr. Nice Guy. Only then will I be happy and not lonely. It's okay, I know that at least for now, I am meant to be alone. It is logical because all the girls around my age are looking for their fun, and that fun just isn't going to be with a boring nice guy. They will date, fall in love or lust, break up and I will be there to console them as I always do. Then as we grow up, they are going to want to settle down, and I will still be there, having been ready a long time for a long term relationship or by then to settle down, and eventually will find someone to settle down with. In a way, Nice Guys do Finish Last. But until then I shall remain single until I am about 26+ the average age when most of the people I know want to get married and so only 5+ more years to go...haha. So for this Holiday Season, I am again alone in the aspect that I do not have a significant other in my life at this moment, but I still have my friends in many ways complete me. So in actuality, I am not alone. Happy Holidays!
